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Saturday, August 20th, 2005
7:56 pm	So summer 06... supposed to be one of the best ever! and in many ways it was... but in many others it was worse than i could have ever imagined. back in may-ish my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer... what we thought would be cured with a simple operation turned into a double mastectomy and the removal of a few lymph nodes. i had never really felt numb to the world before this happened to me... but there is no other way to describe how i felt somedays. i lived my life like nothing was happening but truth be told on the inside i was hollow... i was so drained of all emotion that the ones i showed were usually just the reflections of the people around me. this cancer did a few good things for me also. I really felt like i connected with my mom this summer... sure we had always been kind of close, but this just brought us together that much more. Dont get me wrong - i still dont tell her nearly half of the things that i should - but i love her and she loves me and thats all that matters. It's amazing how you never know how many people care for you and support you until something like this happens. I had many different reactions from my friends - some cried with me, some i cried to, some tried their best to make me happy, and then there were those who made my life that much more difficult. those who fell in the last group i just didnt have time for. and its sad because a few of those friendships were pretty strong... sure there were cracks and issues that could have been worked out... but if you are going to be a bitch when i need a friend (and if i ever needed a friend - i think this would be the time) i dont need you. there were probably hundreds of people who sent food, cards, prayers, books, hugs, phone calls, kisses... but for me personally i want to thank megan and kathleen... i really dont think anyone reads this.. its just a way for me to get my feeling out of my head - and maybe also the start of my entry for my moms project... let me start with megan - yeah, we had our differences. we became really close in middle school - i have countless memories and pictures and notes... but i think it wasnt until this year that we actually found the meaning of best in the title that we put on our relationship. the beginning of high school was rocky.. at one point i had put you under the lost list along with joanna... we still talked and stuff but you knew and i knew that something was off.. racking my brain, im trying to think of a moment or event that brought us back together, but i cant find one. i think that you needed someone, and i needed someone, and somewhere along the way we found each other again. whatever it was, im glad it happened. i dont know how i would have made it through this summer without you - actually i might not have. after all of those times that i had to throw my razor out of my shower to keep myself from doing something i would later regret, its amazing im still here in one piece. although we joke about how totally twinish we are... i think that we are actually the opposite - completely different. i like to think that you kind of complete me in a way, ya know? you're the crazy loud one... im actually crazy and loud a lot too, but i think you would take the cake. i like to think that i keep you kind of grounded... sure, you would be grounded without me... but i like to think i add a little something extra lol... i got you in the gym a lot this summer if anything! but anyway... when you are leaving your toothbrush at my house, you know we have something special! i really do love you, boo! thank you for everything you have done for me - in middle school, high school, and this summer. even if our paths take us different places after this year, i hope you are one of the few friendships that i actually keep because otherwise no one would get my jesus, god, and satan joke! so megan - if for some reason you read this... thank you. kathleen - ohhh kat! we've been through everything and back.. and if there is one person that i think hurt as much as i did through this whole situation it would be you... but you were still there with me - crying and laughing. its kind of crazy that its not even our choice that we became friends but it was our choice that we stayed friends... and its amazing that we stayed the best of friends.. we definately are two comepletely different people... but thats what makes our times together so much fun! i am for sure the crazy loud ho of this relationship... and thats okay! so kat - if you read this (which i would probably die of shock if you did!) you know i love you... so i just want to say thank you for everything from the bottom of my heart. i think this is all for now.. Current Mood: nostalgic (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, December 24th, 2004
10:31 am	Happy Christmas Eve everyone! yayy!! lol so i havent updated in a while! ive been busy busy busy! i cant believe it is already christmas eve! im sooooo excited that it is christmas break though! i think i would have shot myself if i would have had to go to school for longer..so the performing arts holiday show was last week! that was fun! but its over now until next year! lol... i am awake right now because james matthew hughes called me at 10 to tell me happy christmas eve... i think it coulda waited a few more hours lol... ohh well though cause i think im going to go work out cause i really feel gross and i need to! haha! so last night i went to a christmas party! i know i know! me! and a social outing! crazy but true.. lol... soooooo it was realllly funny.. there were only two drunk people there and everyone else was sober.. and i was told a few secrets lol.. it was really funny! but i felt like crap all day yesterday so i told my mom that i would be home kinda early.. but i was kinda ready to leave anyway.. but it was really funn!! i was also told not to break someones heart... a certain someone.. so yeah that was really really random! but it kinda gives me hope! lol... awww wednesday in school katie harper's cousin sent me a dozen roses! they were really really pretty and that was really sweet of him! i love christmas! and matt hughes got me a reallly pretty sweater and necklace and a picture frame! matt is a really good shopper! lol... so yeah.. if the rest of christmas break is as fun and as random as last night then i think its going to be a good christmas! lol.. well im gonna go figure out what im doing today! MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONEE! Current Mood: cheerful (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 12th, 2004
6:52 pm	Wow its been a while! lol.. so december 7 was my birthday! big 17 woot woot! it was pretty exciting! and december 2 was heathers birthday and she had a sleepover and that was tons of fun! so thats about it thats been going on in my life lately! school, dance, swimming.. thats all ive been doing lately and its stressing me out sooo much! i am constantly grinding my teeth which makes my jaw hurt which gives me headaches and most of the problems come from school or dance ...blah! cause i cant fix either of those problems. i just really cant wait for two more years to come when i go to college and away from the stupidness of high school... its just so blah some days.. most days. lately all i've wanted to do is cry. i dont know why its just been one of those times.. i cant go into a dance rehearsal for thisledowne without the reminder that i got screwed over for a part this year... and that makes me wanna cry because ive given up sooo much for them and this is what i get for it. thanks a lot guys! and they wonder why i want to do swim team.. i really wanna quit company.. but i dont think i'll be able to do it. i dont want to stress everyone out and make things more complicated than they are... but i know if i stay for the rest of the year im going to be a constant basketcase. i might look pretty put together from the outside but on the inside im falling apart. and to top it all off i had a pretty intense talk with someone this weekend and i think i really hurt them and that kills me inside.. i thought he/she was gonna cry and im so glad he/she didnt because then i woulda lost it. i cant help the way i feel. im sorry. to end on a lighter note... its almost christmas break! yay!! Current Mood: cranky (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, November 28th, 2004
5:04 pm	have you ever had one of those moments when you know you are doing something bad.. but you dont stop because in that moment it feels like there has never been anything more right..... like eating chocolate, you know its bad for you, but once you have one bite you just dont want to stop.  and once you do stop.. there is that feeling of needing.. like the only thing in the world you want right then is chocolate... but after time, that feeling goes away.. but then someone offers you some chocolate and you take a little bite.. and it all starts over again.  yeahh i hate that feeling. (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 25th, 2004
11:53 am	happy thanksgiving everyone! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 24th, 2004
5:00 pm	Somewhere over the rainbow skies are blue and the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true.   i <3 thanksgiving but i hate waiting!! right now i am waiting for joy and jed to get here to we can figure out what we are doing tonight! cause i need to figure out if im goin to swim practice or not! cause if we are going out to dinner with them then i wont go to practice cause family is more important to me and they are only here for two days!! lol... two days might be plenty though.. we'll just see how it goes! Current Mood: crazy (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 21st, 2004
3:01 pm	Weekend!! this weekend was fun! yay! and its not over yet! well friday we had a football game against riverside... we lost which is sad... but ohh well we woulda probably lost to morgantown anyway! i wanna see what mr. giles has to say about this loss... hes such a dickhead i seriously hate him.... there is no reason on heaven, earth, or hell to say what he did.  if i ever said anything like that about the way he performs his job he would have me in detention so freaking fast... and just because he is the principal and no one on the staff has enough balls to stand up to him because it would be their job on the line... he gets away with so much shit.  at the beginning of the year, he lost my respect as a principal because i think a lot of the stuff he is doing is not benefital to us... but last week he lost my respect as a human being.. and once its gone you cannot get that back... and at graduation... i wish i would walk right past him and not even shake his hand... and if i do shake his hand... i wont be able to look in his eyes and be sincere because to me, he is nothing. i wish clinton h. giles would disappear... and thats all i have to say about that. so on a lighter note! yesterday was the swim meet in elkins! woot woot! so i swam the fly in the medly relay! it was the first time i have swam fly in like 4 years! and i finished! and i didnt die! and rob said it was good so im going to swim the 100 fly next weekend! AHH! im gonna die! lol... then i did the 200 free! and i wasnt dead when i did it this time so i cut off 15 seconds! woot woot! i think i still got dead last or close to it but i dont care! i know im not gonna ever be as good as some of these people! but at least im starting not to suck so bad! thennn i swam the 100 free! i cut 2 seconds off of that! yay! then we did better on our 400 relay this week too! lol i feel like a such a loser on that relay cause im definately the slowest person! the other 3 are hycat swimmers... and they're like.... ohh im not really gonna try im too tired and it doesnt really matter... and they still get like 8 seconds faster than me!! and yesterday rob made me swim anchor!! lol... i'll get over it! i got a shirt from this meet too and thats always exciting! so today we came back from canaan and i tried to clean my room... but that didnt really work! i have so much homework to do... but i havent started... at 5 we are going to aunt lucis to eat and then i have dance at 6! so i got lots to do in about the next hour! ohh well! thanksgiving break is in two more days thank goodness! cause im about to die with school and everything! and i dont have dance this week which is also a huuuuggeee plus!! so im gonna go take a shower! and get ready to go eat dinner and stuff! laterr! Current Mood: giggly (Comment on this)
Friday, November 19th, 2004
6:36 pm	To you: sometimes i really wish i could tell you exactly how i feel... ...i don't know what you are going through right now because it has never happened to me... but you know that i am here if you ever need anything at all... because i really do love you. maybe not the way that you wish i did but i still love you with all that i can. Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 14th, 2004
4:44 pm	weekend is almost over : ( today is sunday! thats so sad! cause its the last day of the weekend and it comes before mondays and i hate mondays! things are changing... i can feel it and i think that if i really wanted to stop it i could... but the truth is i dont really care anymore.  i dont really care that people are being jerks and that some people just dont even care anymore. maybe its because i know that the people who really really care will stick around and come through. but lately because i have been kinda sitting back and ive been able to see people for what they truly are.  i took myself out of the equation and saw how other people would percieve my "friends". i didnt relize how rude some people are.  how really not funny they are. how truely clueless and stupid they are.  how fake they can be. and how life without them is basically the same as life with them.  they didnt really add much to my life.. and im not saying that some of my friends are out of my life now but im saying that some people just arent able to affect me the way they used to.  but thats only a select few.  there are others that if i didnt have in my life i think i would seriously die! i cannot picture myself without them! and they know who they are. i just really cant wait to go to college.. i get to start allll over.. and its gonna be great. i get to be exactly who i want to be and who i am, not who i have been all of my life because being who and what everyone thinks i am is easier than changing their view of me. oo well thats just what i've been thinking about a lot lately.  im so sick of being fake.  when i laugh i want it to because something was funny.  not because someone else thinks its funny so i should too! there is one person.. well two or three.. who i would really like to go up to and shake really hard and say what the hell are you thinking?! they are soo freaking mean and no one even sees it.  well some people do... like me and another person that ive talked to about it.. they are mean in disguise! i really cant explain it.  then there is one other person who i really think must be extremely stupid!! people around her will be like.. "********** is sooo stupid i cant even believe it shes so dumb that if i were to hit that she wouldnt know what to do"... and she sits there while they say it right in front of her and laughs!! its not funny. sorry hunny! even if they are kidding.. i think thats a little bit degrading and i really dont know why you put up with it... you can be a really fun person sometimes but others i just want to smack you and say what the hell are you thinking! ok im done venting! so yesterday was the swim meet!! woot woot!! it was fun! my first! yay! well i swam the medly relay... freestyle.. and right after that i had to swim the 200 free!! i thought i was going to die when i finished! brittany fink said she cried... i wanted to die, puke, pass out, and cry all at the same time! i was sooo dizzy and sick that it wasnt even funny! but then i got over it! i swam the 100 free and 400 free relay! that was alright.. i didnt do to great but it was my first meet and so im gonna work hard and get better! woot woot! im so excited! i really like swimming! its just different and fun! i have dance in 1 hour and 8 minutes.. i really dont know what i was thinking when i auditioned again this year... i really dont want to be there somedays! maybe ive burned myself out! but even then i love to dance!! its just second nature to me most of the time! and i love it when i have a good class! so why do i feel like im walking through the gates of hell when i go i for rehearsal? i really dont know! im not sick (mostly) anymore! which is good! for a while there i thought i would never get better! but i did! ooo and guess what?! we beat GW on friday!! gangsta! round 1 of the playoffs done! moving on to round 2!! the game was soooo exciting! i almost couldnt watch it cause i was so freaking nervous!! crazzzzy stuff!! we play riverside this friday and then on saturday we have a swim meet in elkins! yay for weekends! and yay for thanksgiving! i think my favorite things about thanksgiving (other than eating) is getting out of school for eating! cause school has just been sucking lately! i already have senioritis! im eating raisins... random ( i kknow ) but they were in my trick or treat candy bag and i figured they were better for me than chocolate so i thought what the heck! well i guess im gonna go get ready for dance!! later!! Current Mood: drained (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 10th, 2004
10:33 pm	disney channel rocks my world! LA LA LA LA LA! YAY FOR NO SCHOOL TOMORROW! VETERAN'S DAY! I GET TO SLEEP IN AND THEN DO ALL OF MY HOMEWORK THAT I HAVE PUT OFF FOR LIKE... A BAZILLION WEEKS AND THEN GO SHOPPING THEN DANCE THEN SWIM TEAM!! WOOT WOOT! I'VE BEEN SICK FOR THE PAST THREE DAYS WHICH SUCKS SOO MUCH! I HAVENT BEEN TO DANCE ALL WEEK CAUSE I REALLY HATE SWEATING AND GETTING HOT THEN GETTING CHILLED... YA KNOW? LOL WELL YEA ITS JUST NO FUN TO BE SICK AT DANCE ESPECIALLY WHEN IM ALL SNEEZING AND COUGHING AND THEN HAVE TO HOLD THE BARRE WHERE OTHER PEOPLE WILL BE TOUCHING TOO... I KNOW ITS GROSS! I DONT WANNA SHARE MY GERMS! BUT I HAVE BEEN GOING TO SWIM TEAM PRACTICE CAUSE I CAN KINDA DO THAT WHILE IM NOT FEELING LOVELY.. EXCEPT TUESDAY NIGHT WE DID SPRINTS AND I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA PASS OUT! REALLY I DID! I FELT SO BAD! OUR FIRST MEET IS SATURDAY AND IM SOOOO EXCITED! MY PARENTS WILL BE OUT OF TOWN BUT THATS OK.. I WAS NEVER REALLY THE KIND OF PERSON THAT NEEDS SOMEONE TO TELL ME HOW PROUD THEY ARE... JASON IS THE ONLY PERSON WHO HAS SAID THAT HE WAS GONNA TRY TO COME BY ON SATURDAY AND WATCH ME SWIM! WELL I TAKE THAT BACK MEGAN SAID SHE WAS GONNA STOP BY TOO! THE ONLY PROBLEM IS THAT I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TIME I WILL BE SWIMMING! IT MADE MY HEART HAPPY THAT THEY WANTED TO COME! ITS GONNA BE KINDA EMBARASSING THOUGH CAUSE ITS MY FIRST TIME SWIMMING A LOT OF THESE EVENTS SO I DONT REALLY KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT.. I KNOW THAT IM NOT GONNA BE THE BEST OR EVEN CLOSE TO THE BEST CAUSE THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO MAKE SWIMMING THEIR LIFE AND ITS DEFINATELY JUST SOMETHING THAT I STARTED FOR FUN! BUT IM SWIMMING THE 100 FREE, 200 FREE, AND TWO RELAYS! IM REALLY SCARED FOR THE 200 FREE CAUSE BRITTANY FINK SAID THAT AFTER HER FIRST TIME SWIMMING IT LAST YEAR SHE GOT OUT OF THE POOL AND CRIED BECAUSE SHE WAS HURTING SO BAD SINCE SHE HAD NEVER REALLY SWAM IT IN A COMPETITION BEFORE! SO WHEN SHE TOLD ME THAT I WAS LIKE ahhh!! HAHA I DONT KNOW WHY IM TYPING IN CAPS RIGHT NOW! IM JUST IN THAT KIND OF MOOD! SOO ITS NOW 10:40! ALL OF MY FRIENDS ARE AT KAYLAS HOUSE BUT I DIDNT GO CAUSE I GOT OUT OF SWIM TEAM AT 9:30 AND IT WAS KINDA POINTLESS TO GO FOR LIKE 20 MINUTES CAUSE SHE LIVES KINDA FAR AWAY! THERE ARE SOME OTHER REASONS TOOOO BUT GUESS WHAT?! THIS WEEKEND I THINK JOY IS COMING IN TO STAY WITH ME CAUSE MY PARENTS ARE OUT OF TOWN! THATS EXCITING!! BUT SERIOUSLY.. ONE STRIKE AND SHE IS OUT!! IF SHE EVEN CALLS JOHN ONCE! OR INVITES HIM OVER OR IF HE "SHOWS UP" I SWEAR IM LEAVING! MEGAN ALREADY SAID I CAN STAY WITH HER! WOOT WOOT! BUT REALLY I HAVE LET HER PUT ME SECOND TO JOHN SOO MANY TIMES AND IM KINDA SICK OF IT.. SO IF SHES GONNA MAKE THE EFFORT TO COME DOWN AND SEE ME THEN I'LL SPEND MY WEEKEND WITH HER. BUT IF SHE COMES DOWN HERE.. AND EXPECTS TO SPEND TIME OR TALK TO A GUY THAT SHE SEES EVERY OTHER DAY OF THE WEEK, IM OUT LIKE A LIGHT! NO JOKE I ALREADY TOLD MY MOM! LOL WELLLLLLLL I HAVE NOTHING TO DO AROUND HERE SO I THINK IM GONNA GO GET READY TO GO TO SLEEP! CAUSE IM A COOL KID LIKE THAT! I JUST HATE SLEEPING THE WHOLE DAY AWAY WHEN THERE ARE OTHER THINGS THAT I NEED TO DO YA KNOW? SO MY SOLUTION IS GOING TO BED EARLIER WHEN I CAN! LIKE RIGHT NOW! AND YEA SO IM A GEEK-WEIRDO-LOSER! HAHA BUT OH WELL! byeee! Current Mood: energetic (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, November 7th, 2004
7:32 am	WEEKEND! This weekend FLEW by!! ohh man! lol... friday i went to the football game! that was fun! we won! woot woot! that means we play GW next friday in the playoffs!! its gonna be C-R-A-Z-Y!!! thenn saturday i got to sleep in and it was wonderful.. then i went to work out and that felt good! then i was supposed to go to the mall with brittany cause she came in from wvu for the weekend with her boyfriend but when i was halfway there i called her to see where she was in the mall so i could meet her and she had already left because her boyfriend called and needed her or something like that which there were a lot of circumstances and stuff so i understand... but disappointment is beginning to be second nature to me. so then i came home and waited for it to be time for dance... so then i went to dance and we had a "talk" for like 45 minutes which was good because the things needed to be said... then morgan and i began to learn our choreography... its really really funny.. and embarassing for me! ohh well i should be used to it by now!! but then after that katie came to the studio.. and we went to krogers and bought jamie some flowers then went to see his show! he did really good! after that we went to taco bell cause we are fat kids like that! then we went to matts house cause it was like 9 and we had nothing to do! so we sat in his car and talked til we had to leave! then i took her home and then i went home and went to sleep! then today i had dance from 12-6... it was pretty fun! ballet for three hours.. then a snack break... then jazz and we set a piece with lorrie russeau (sp?)... i love her classes!! she is sooo great!! too bad she lives in michigan or something like that! so now im home and really tiredd! i think im starting to get sick too and that sucks really really baddddddd!! but yea... so i think im gonna skip doing health and careers online tonight and go to sleep by like 8.. cause i really need to! well guys.. until we meet again... BYEE! PS- did you know that chewing ice is a sign of sexual frustration? lol... my friend from camp told me that... and if its true.. i must be reallllly sexually frustrated right now cause i love chewing ice! lol Current Mood: tired (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 4th, 2004
10:26 am	Write eleven statements intended towards eleven different people but never tell them it was about them. You would never say it to their face or something you wish you would have said, but didn't. 1. i miss the old you so much.. what happened? i went through so much with you and we shared everything with each other and then you just decide to stop calling? well im done with even trying now 2. *this is to two people* i miss you guys soo much... its just not the same around here without you! i know that times are hard for ya'll but i wish you would call more because i love youuu!! really i do!! 3. i love you soooo much! like really i dont even know where to begin! we're soo close that sometimes i feel like we are one person.. its one of those things where we can sit and just watch tv.. and not talk for like 2 hours.. and have the time of our lives cause we are that comfortable with each other. i really think so highly of you and you mean soo much to me. 4. i really wish you wouldnt have changed so much.. maybe its me that changed but either way i miss what we had.. and even though we are working on it again.. its just not the same but still... i got ya back and i care about ya! 5. man oh man... i know sometimes i dont act like it and can be kinda mean (sorry about that but you are mean sometimes too!!).. but i sometimes i reallllly just wanna grab you and kiss you like there is no tomorrow. 6. i think you're really sexy. 'nuff said. 7. we've had some great times!! i really do love you but sometimes you get on my nerves.. haha 8. i bet i've known you almost the longest out of any of my friends!! back to the good ole chamberlain days! its funny though cause it wasnt til really recently that we got really close!! i really love you! and the times we have together are definately prevelant in my memories! 9. if i were with you alone in a dark room.. *i'll let your mind wander here* 10. i wish we talked more 11. you hurt me soo much... i dont even think you know, but to this day.. i still hate to make myself vonerable because i never wanna be hurt as bad as you hurt me.. you might not have meant to.. but you did, and you knew what you were doing.. everything that has gone bad in your life so far is what you deserve because you could have been so much better and i think you know that... but im not bitter or anything! haha 12. if you could do it all over again... would you? okay okay so i did 12... oh well! that was kinda fun.. tonight is a night for getting out what you really think.. its been the first honestly good day in a really long time! i didnt cry once today! well almost once but i got over it! it was a gonna be a good cry though.. not a bad one! i think things are slowly calming done and im soo glad! well im goin to bed! night!<3 Current Mood: relieved (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 2nd, 2004
10:41 am	no schoooool! i love election days! we need to have one at least once a week! but anyways! tonight is the big meeting with january.. im nervous just because i dont know what the outcome will be... i know what my ideal outcome would be but i dont think i would ever have enough guts to suggest it let alone go through with it. i think everyone is just extremely fed up with everything. which brings me to my next point... i love swimming!! oh man oh man! lol... it makes me happy.. because i dont have to deal with drama drama drama and people being stupid like at dance. its just me swimming. haha it sounds cheesy but it feels good for my legs to hurt while im working and then get to the point where it doesnt hurt anymore... lol and im really excited cause i think its gonna be sooooo much fun!! lol i just dont know what to do about dance because i think rob is thinking about changing the time or something and that means that it would be right in the time when i have class... so i dunno! i know what i would rather do but i dont know if thats fair to everyone at dance... well i know that it isnt but they can get over it. so i decided that im giving up my part in thisledowne... its a hard decision but i think its something that i have to do because otherwise im gonna be going crazy in january! and that way too... i wont have rehearsals on saturdays so i can go to my meets without having to change all of these times around and stuff! woot woot!! stolen from rachel: [YES OR NO] you keep a diary: this is about as close as it gets you like to cook: when i can make it taste good lol you have a secret you have not shared with anyone: of course... well i tell kat almost everything though u set your watch a few minutes ahead: not really you believe in love: yes [DO YOU] take a shower everyday: usually 2... im a shower freak think you know you've been in love: i've loved people.. but i dont think ive been "in love" want to get married: yessss but only when im ready and i find someone who can stand me lol have any tattoos/where?: nope but i want a really small one when i turn 18 piercing/where?: ears get motion sickness: nope.. not usually! think you're a health freak: i hate it when my hands feel dirty but not really get along with your parents: most of the time like thunderstorms: love them [PREFERENCES] CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT: either as long as the timing is right.. ya know? CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: hot chocolate MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE: white VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE: vanilla [IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU] CRIED: yes HELPED SOMEONE: yes BOUGHT SOMETHING: nope GOTTEN SICK: felt sick because of a hard decision i had to make GONE TO THE MOVIES: nope GONE OUT FOR DINNER: nope SAID "I LOVE YOU": yep WRITTEN A REAL LETTER: nope TALKED TO AN EX: nope lol MISSED AN EX: well he wasnt really an ex but yea WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL: this one TALKED TO SOMEONE YOU CRUSH ON: hehehe MISSED SOMEONE: yes HUGGED SOMEONE: yes KISSED SOMEONE: kinda but not really FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS: nope... just had a really serious talk with my mom though FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND: nope [NAME 10 BANDS YOU LISTEN TO] 1. Rascal Flatts 2. yellowcard 3. usher 4. kenny chesney 5. shania twain 6. sheryl crow 7. sarah mclachlan 8. brittany spears *lol i know i know* 9. christina aguliera 10. jessica/ashlee simpson [WOULD YOU EVER] Eat a bug: i did at camp on a dare lol Bungee jump: yep Hang glide: yep Kill someone: no Have sex with someone you don't love: katatha might have something to say about that Kiss someone of the same sex: umm most likely not... thats kinda gross Have sex with someone of the same sex: ewwwww Parachute from a plane: maybe Walk on hot coals: it depends on my reasons lol.. not just for kicks but maybe if i got paid lol Go out with someone for their looks: maybe as long as they werent super jerk For their reputation: no Be a vegetarian: i could never do that Wear plaid with stripes: to be a dork lol... IM a stranger: yes Sing karaoke: haha good times with that one Get drunk off your butt: no cause i think it makes you look sooo stupid and do things you wouldnt normally do Shoplift: never have actually Run a red light: on accident lol Star in a porn video: haha its my dream.. not Dye your hair blue: no... but i did promise kat she could dye my hair lol Be on Survivor: sure Wear makeup in public: umm yeah Cheat on a test: if i knew i wouldnt get caught Make someone cry: not on purpose!! Call your math teacher a motherf****r: only mrs williams.. that bitch Date someone more than ten years older than you: depends on who it was! Cuss out a priest: umm no Wear a thong: haha i would have to say yes Stay up all through the night: haha good times happen at 5 in the morning Drink straight espresso: noo i dont need it MIXED QUESTIONS: [spell your first name backwards] ahtnamas [age] 16 [where do you live] west virginiaaa, wild and wonderful [four words that sum you up] hyper, deep, hard-working, loving [wallet] coach [hairbrush] umm i like my hairbrushes i guess this is a weird question [jewelry worn daily] if i can remember to put it on lol [pillow cover] right now its white with little flowers on it [coffee cups] fiesta wear! woot woot its all pretty and stuff! [shoes] tennis shoes or clogs usually... or my rainbows when i can cause i <3 them! [cologne/perfume] happy, tommy girl, lucky, or aura depending on my mood [lotion] vanilla yum! [clothes you’re wearing now] gray sweat pants with a blue sports bra [after this] homework, maybe see matt or something, meeting at dance, ballet/modern, swim team [talking to] no one [eating] nothing [fetishes] pink [some of your favorite movies] Mean Girls lol... serindipity, a walk to remember, grease... lots of others [something you're looking forward to in the upcoming months] christmas and my birthday [last thing you ate] banana and peanut butter! [if you could have any animals as pets what would they be] cute little tiny dog or cat that stayed little forever and ever lol [three cities you wouldn't mind relocating to] charlotte, outside of nyc, wilmington [some of your favorite foods] mac and cheese, cherries*haha kat*, sweet potatoes, cheese fries [something you wish you could understand better] what makes people do what they do [miss someone you haven't seen in a long time] yes lots and lots of people DO YOU...: [like candles] yes and fire too! lol [like incense] not really [believe in soul mates] yes [believe in love at first sight] i believe in a feeling you get that makes you know something is right.. but i think that love takes time [believe in forgiveness] yes [want to have kids] yes cute ones lol [believe that you know the person that you’ll marry at this point in time] no dont think so SOCIAL LIFE: [boyfriend/girlfriend] nope im a loser [hobbies] dance, music, singing in my shower, SWIMMING!, tennis, friends, movies, sleeping [pager/cell] cell [are you the center of attention or wallflower] i like being the center of attention when it is good attention [car you drive] green honda accord... "teenage green" lol [would you rather be with friends or on a date] with friends and a date.. lol depends on what friends we are talking about.. but date cause i love attention [job] this summer! lifeguard! [attend church] yeah [like being around people] yes most of the time PERSONAL: [pet peeves] annoying people who are also ugly.. haha megan and i had this conversation a while ago [ever liked someone you had no chance with] of course [ever lied to your best friend] yes [ever wanted to get revenge on someone b/c they hurt you] yep [cried over the opposite sex] yep [have a certain "type" of person you go after] not really.. im attracted to all different types of people [rather be dumper or dumped] neither [rather have a relationship or "hook-up"] thats a toughy.. right now a hook-up would be nice ;) but then again i love being in a relationship [what is your favorite part of your physical appearance] i like my dimples actually [what is your favorite part of your emotional being] i like to look at the good side of things! [are you happy with yourself] for the most part [are you happy with your life] there are some decisions that i wish i would have made differently.. but you gotta live and be happy with what you have [if you could change one thing what would it be] i wish i had more time to enjoy my life and do what i want to do.. cause right now i dont well that was fun! but i think its time for me to go do some anatomy homework! woot woot! wish me luck for my meeting later today! Edit: ya wanna hear a funny story? i thought that quiz seemed really familiar but i thought it was just because i had read it so many times from other people.. but acutally i did it back in august too... lol its weird that a lot of my answers were the same but some of them are different! lol.. its funny to see how ive changed in just a few monthes Current Mood: stressed (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 1st, 2004
5:11 pm	kathleen + samantha = love hahaha i wrote this big long entry then it lost it, gosh darn it! soo this weekend on saturday kathleen and i were gonna go feed the ducks at coonskin! but it was raining so we went to her house first and watched the wvu game! then we went to the mall! and during this time i told kat that i was doing swim team at school.. and she was like "SAMANTHA HANNA ARE YOU CRAZY!? WHEN DO YOU HAVE TIME TO DO THIS?" and my response was a little quiet.. its just something i need to do for me... then when i told her mom she did the same thing!! so then we go to the mall and see abby... well abby and i start talking about dance and go on for a good hour or so about it and all of the problems... kat listened the whole time and added things when she could but mostly she just listened. we talked about how much we love it and how we put all we have into it but that its just not the same anymore. and when we walked away from that conversation kathleen looked at me and said "i get it now"... those 4 little words meant so much to me.. just that she understands. because i dont think she has ever really understood before and now im so glad that she kinda does... i love kathleeeeeen! she makes my heart smile.. lol in the words of molly akers... i love molly too!! so yea! NO SCHOOL TOMORROW! WOOT WOOT! and all of this election crap will FINALLY be over!! im getting so sick of hearing people fight... i mean its great to be well informed and involved but NEWSFLASH! none of us are old enough to vote so save your stories for someone that you might actually influence and have it matter! tonight is the first night of swim team practice in the pool!! i am soo excited!! a lot of it has to do with the fact that its not a ballet class woot woot! we are having a meeting with january tomorrow about all of the problems at dance.. I hope everything goes okay.. we wanted to be able to talk to each other as a company without teachers, parents, and january... but january said that she wants everything out in the open because she wants us to be happy and be happy to be at dance and stuff... but with everything thats been going on this year its a little hard to be happy at dance! but ohh well we'll see how it goes! well im gonna go eat some food and get ready for ballet and then swim team and then maybe matts house! woot woot! Current Mood: cold (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 28th, 2004
9:39 pm	HALLOWEEN!! soooo i go to dance... and im all bummed cause its trick or treat... and im stuck at dance until 9... BLAH! we have choreography class *which sucks cause the teacher scares me* and during that class morgan tells me that we dont have tap tonight so i get to leave at 6:45! yay we were happy! then we decided that we needed to go trick or treating to celebrate! so then we have company class which really sucked cause everyone got pissed and frustrated and it was just no fun... except that abby thaxtons halloween costume CRACKS ME UP!!! ohhhhhhh man that was soooo funnnyy!! haha you will have to ask about it cause it was just too funny to only read about! lets just say that abby is the size of a toothpick and she was dresseed up as a fat ballerina!! haha it was soooooo hilarious! but anyways! so company class ends at 6:15 and morgan and i start getting ready for our rehearsal! but jamie was like "girls... i can only work for about 15 minutes cause i need to leave" (she was really pissed at the world right about now)... haha so we were like YES MORE TRICK OR TREAT TIME! and then she was like... well how bout you just leave now... Sooo we took of RUNNING into the prop room!! and hannah morgan and i all got out lots of costumes and tryed them on and it was really really funny! but it ends up im in a purple sparkly dress with a tiarra and a wand.. morgan is in this huge really old blue dress with a gray old woman wig... and hannah had one this white sparkly tutu with a top hat and a black suit jacket thing with white gloves!! we looked hott! so then we get in our cars and go down to kc and run around and have fun getting candy even though we are wayyy to old! haha it was hannahs first time goign! and shes almost 19!!! so she kept forgetting what to say... haha it was sooooo funny! i love my dance girlies! i really needed a fun night and im glad that i finally got one! but now i gotta go do that calculus homework! later gators! Current Mood: bouncy (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 27th, 2004
4:30 pm	FALLLLLL! ahhh i love the fall! LOVE IT! except i hate how much i have to do lately... between dance *yuck*, school *bigger yuck* and everything else im going crazyy!!! the other day i was driving home in my car and i thought.. the trees are really pretty.. i should take a picture... but i never did!!! and now the trees are ugly and not the bright pretty colors they were a few weeks ago! im gonna get all deep here for a minute... but do you ever think that maybe you are kinda wasting your life? like there are so many thing that i always say i wanted to do... but i never do.. ok so im not wasting my life... but i dont wanna grow up and have to say, "man i wish i would have done that when i had the chance"... fall will come again next year, but this is my one and only chance to be a junior in high school.. ive gone through my whole life only dancing.. and dont get me wrong.. i love dance and am completely lost without it.. but sometime i think i get completely lost in it. Thats all it seems like i do anymore... and the funny thing is that i dont think i like it as much as i used to. I mean.. when i have a really good class i love it.. but lately, every class leaves me frustrated... mostly with the people i dance with and i dont know why! im thinking maybe im outgrowing it.. or maybe ive found new things that i think i would rather spend my time doing. the problem is now it is kinda late to decide not to be in company anymore. Im thinking about not even doing the big ballet show. I mean... i have about 4 rehearsals before we start full show rehearsals... thats good in the respect that last year i was there ALLLL the time.. but then again.. is that gonna put so much unnecessary stress on me? i dont need anymore stress... between friends and school im about to go crazy... im beginning to think that kathleen is the only friend i have that can stand being my best friend for more than 3 years... cause sarah sure left my life fast but thats a whole other story. it just pisses me off soo much! doesnt she know how much i freakin stood up for her when it would have been easier to just stay quiet.. and i listened when she cried.. and i let her stay at my house when she didnt wanna go home.. and my mom even bought her stuff and treated her like her own daughter.. and whats the thanks that i get? no phone calls im sorry and a flimsy im sorry at the beginning of the school year followed by nothing.. I think everytime i called her this summer she was high - then shed say that she would call me back then never would.. but stupid me would keep calling because i wanted to be her friend. we had some really good times together.. from dance shows to competitions to just hanging out and i just dont get how you can forget friends like that? ugghhhhh it makes me soo mad... then there are other people too that im just not even going to get started on... so im gonna do swim team!!! woot woot!! i know i know i dont really have time but i need something new to do to keep me from wanting to shoot myself!! im so excited!! well im supposed to be at ballet *YUCKKK* in like 30 minutes... i really really dont wanna go?! why do i do this to myself?! i convinced myself that this year will be better but why didnt i see that it gets worse every year.. i dont wanna be a professional dancer so why do i spend this much time doing it?? cause i love it but then again do i really? ohh man i just dont know... my mom told me that i need to make a decision soon.. cause she said that if im gonna spend all year dreading classes and rehearsals then i might as well cut back and make sure its somehting that i really wanna spend so much time doing... you know something that really scares me and i think really rang a bell in my mind... the other day in pointe class we were doing piruettes... and i landed mine funny and twisted my ankle a little bit... it scared me enough for me to want to take off my pointe shoes cause it made it a little sore but you know what my first thought was? "damn, i wish i would have fallen harder and broken my ankle cause then i would get out of classes for a few weeks so i will have time to sleep and catch up with school"... i think there is something wrong with that to end on a lighter note... RACHEL IS JOINING SWIM TEAM WITH ME!! haha! Current Mood: cranky (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 23rd, 2004
11:29 am	HOMECOMING!! homecoming rocks my world!! and since im back to using these expressions... MR GILES IS FREAKING OFF OF HIS ROCKER! haha but thats another story! monday was pajama day... i had on my pink pjs and then i spilt chicken soup on them so i changed into my gray sweatpants cause im a dork and took extra clothes lol... tuesday was mardi gras day.. i had a crazy outfit planned but when i woke up i felt like mierda major and so i didnt wear it lol.. but thats ok! wednesday was mismatch day and that rocked my socks cause it was great! thursday was... umm.. oh yea! cowboy day! that was good cause i loveeeee cowboys lol.. its my weak spot... friday was blue and gray day!! WOOT WOOT FOR SCHOOL SPIRIT!! and then we had the pep assembly and i had to do the dance with dance company.. oh man i was kinda nervous just cause it was like the whole freaking school! ohh well it was fun!! then last night i went to my gmas house for the night cause my parents are out of town!! and then today catholic plays capital in soccer and morgan and i are gonna go support our schools!! yay for soccer! and then the homecoming game is tonight!! i hope we win!! i think brooke is gonna go to the game cause we play her school and i hope i can go see her for a bit cause i love brookie! lol.. then tomorrow spanish 4 is coming over again to finish our present for mrs alcazar! yayyy!! lol.. so yep thats about it! dance has kinda been driving me crazy.. morgan and i have our first Thisledowne rehearsal tomorrow! i dont really know what to expect! except im a guy and that sucks real bad cause im not manly lol.. or at least i dont think that i am! well i think im gonna go take a shower and get ready for the day cause my brother plays in a tennis tournament in 10 minutes and i told him that i would be there! haha byee!! Current Mood: ditzy (Comment on this)
Saturday, October 16th, 2004
9:51 am	FUNFUNFUN! SOOO! its been a week! woo! lol... i love reading people journals where they talk about really cool stuff... i mean not like events and stuff but things that they are thinking and ideas! but thats what i write in my journal journal.. lol... this week was crazyyyy!! teachers went pshyco and decided to give us majooorrr homework! it was nutzo! i was sooo glad that friday finally came! Thursday... i had a little embarassing thing happen to me! but it was actually really funny and it made me happy so ohh well! yeaa thats a whole other story lol... then last night! kathleen, jason, and kats friends erica and two others that i dont remember their names and i went to see friday night lights! it was really really good! and now im getting ready to go to bridge day with my dad brother and kathleen! woo hoo!! i love bridge dayyyy!! so i gotta go get ready and eat some breakfast! byee! Current Mood: chipper (Comment on this)
Friday, October 8th, 2004
3:18 pm	YAYY!! so last night was one of the funnest nights ive had in a longggg time!! i was a little worried cause it was gonna be so many different people all meshed together.. but it was totally cool!! So we worked on the skeleton.. and finished as much as we were gonna do.. then we stood around and ate.. THEN! megan and brittany went and got the best of will ferrell dvd.. and they did the spartan dance for us! ohh man brittany fink cracks me up!! so then we watched some more of the dvd and it was freaking funny!! hahahaha! then we went downstairs.. we were gonna watch a movie, but we got distracted and started talking and talked for like 3 hours! ohh it was me, brittany fink, megan, sierra, molly, kristen, cassie, and kelsey.. brittany means and heather were there too but they had to leave! But anyways! we talked about soo much stuff! lol and you know that we brought up ty robb more than a few times! hahaha! then we went and got our stuff ready to go to sleep and stuff.. and it ended up just being me and brittany and megan awake! sooo we decided to play this song game! hahahaha it was soo funny! and loud! then brittany taught us how to make farting sounds and we did that for at least 30 minutes! haha kelsey woke up and was like.. DO YOU KNOW HOW LOUD YOU ARE!? but we couldnt stop laughing!! it was sooo funny! thenn megan passed out on us! and brittany and i started tlaking about scarey things! lol then thats the last thing i remember! then this morning.. brittany, megan, cassie, and kelsey had to leave at 8.. so i woke up and said bye to them! and then went back to sleep.. yea so molly, kristen, sierra, and i didnt wake back up until 1:30!! it was really funny cause none of us knew how late it was! but thats what i get for goin to bed at 5ish i guess! lol so i started with 9 fish and a frog... and im down to just 4 little fish ):... i dont know whats wrong! but in better news... kathleen is spending the rest of the weekend with me!! YAYYYYYY!!! Current Mood: chipper (Comment on this)
Monday, October 4th, 2004
9:50 pm	so how bout how much i love kathleen? lol she makes me smile! below is a conversation about my new fish tank... before this we were talking about boys and how they suck! i basically put this on here so i wouldnt forget it cause to me it was REALLY REALLY FUNNY! haha but youuu might think its funny too! manthaa0831: i mean... who needs boys when you have kathleen and the ninja fish!? W V baBy Doll 3: lol W V baBy Doll 3: hahahaha W V baBy Doll 3: can i put that on my profile? lol manthaa0831: well sure! manthaa0831: lol W V baBy Doll 3: lol ok thanks W V baBy Doll 3: lol yay my profile makes me happy now manthaa0831: hahaha manthaa0831: im so excited for you to meet my fish! W V baBy Doll 3: lol me too!!! manthaa0831: and my frog! manthaa0831: and my sucker fish! manthaa0831: i went ahead and thought of names W V baBy Doll 3: you gotta frog?! manthaa0831: but i dont know which one is which!! manthaa0831: lol manthaa0831: yeaaaa i did W V baBy Doll 3: omg thats sooooo exciting! manthaa0831: haha it just kinda floats around W V baBy Doll 3: i have always wanted a frog!!! W V baBy Doll 3: but i never got one!! manthaa0831: haha cause its the kind that swims aroud the whole time W V baBy Doll 3: we even looked at them at petsmart lol W V baBy Doll 3: i think that was where but i dont remember W V baBy Doll 3: haha manthaa0831: hahaha manthaa0831: well i always think mine is dead manthaa0831: and i start yelling at the tank manthaa0831: and then he moves lol W V baBy Doll 3: lol manthaa0831: i like my fish though lol i sit and look at them manthaa0831: and my mom and i are very excited W V baBy Doll 3: lol where are they manthaa0831: on my nightstand lol W V baBy Doll 3: aw thats awesome lol W V baBy Doll 3: i cant wait to see them! lol manthaa0831: lol manthaa0831: i got 4 girls and 4 guys manthaa0831: and they have babies every 20 or so days manthaa0831: lol W V baBy Doll 3: lol manthaa0831: and they have about 50 babies W V baBy Doll 3: hahah W V baBy Doll 3: omg W V baBy Doll 3: are you serious manthaa0831: but the guy said that they eat most of them W V baBy Doll 3: awwwwwwwwww manthaa0831: but im not gonna let them! W V baBy Doll 3: can you not like spay them manthaa0831: im gonna save the guppies! manthaa0831: lol manthaa0831: hahahahahahhaha manthaa0831: i dont know1 W V baBy Doll 3: lol what are guppies manthaa0831: i keep wondering how they mate manthaa0831: lol W V baBy Doll 3: haha W V baBy Doll 3: hmm manthaa0831: i think my fish are fancytail guppies manthaa0831: lol W V baBy Doll 3: watch for them and see if they have sex W V baBy Doll 3: lol manthaa0831: i know manthaa0831: but what the heck does fish sex look like?! W V baBy Doll 3: i have nooo idea manthaa0831: i asked my mom.. and she didnt know either W V baBy Doll 3: lol manthaa0831: i wanna see them have the babies manthaa0831: lol manthaa0831: cause i think they just poop them out W V baBy Doll 3: lol whoa W V baBy Doll 3: why do they come out the other end than our babies do? manthaa0831: well manthaa0831: dont they come out the same end kinda? manthaa0831: cause we dont burp up our babies manthaa0831: lol W V baBy Doll 3: well W V baBy Doll 3: ok W V baBy Doll 3: yea.. W V baBy Doll 3: but no.. W V baBy Doll 3: lol manthaa0831: but that would be funny if we did manthaa0831: hahahaha W V baBy Doll 3: they come out of the butt hole manthaa0831: ours do? W V baBy Doll 3: ours come out of the "down there" hole manthaa0831: hahahahaha manthaa0831: the no no zone W V baBy Doll 3: lol yesss W V baBy Doll 3: exactly W V baBy Doll 3: so that is definitely not the same end manthaa0831: gotcha manthaa0831: lol manthaa0831: well same general area right? W V baBy Doll 3: yea W V baBy Doll 3: i guess manthaa0831: haha W V baBy Doll 3: wow do the males have babies too manthaa0831: i dont think so W V baBy Doll 3: cause both of them have butt holes W V baBy Doll 3: oh ok manthaa0831: hahahahaha manthaa0831: cause the girls have the big bellies manthaa0831: lol manthaa0831: i think one of my fishies is pregnant W V baBy Doll 3: lol yay! manthaa0831: and i felt bad when i got it cause i wanted to find the daddy to take with her! W V baBy Doll 3: aww W V baBy Doll 3: i dont think they keep track of who their daddy is W V baBy Doll 3: lol W V baBy Doll 3: or their mate manthaa0831: you dont think so? W V baBy Doll 3: i dunno manthaa0831: man i was hopin they would like get married and live together in the tank W V baBy Doll 3: how the hell would you do that in the ocean W V baBy Doll 3: lol manthaa0831: live in the same plant? manthaa0831: lol W V baBy Doll 3: they all look alike and that place is hugee W V baBy Doll 3: haha ohh yeah manthaa0831: maybe we should ask an ocean sponge! W V baBy Doll 3: i forgot about nemo and his family manthaa0831: hahaha W V baBy Doll 3: lol ok W V baBy Doll 3: oh wow she did have a lot of babies manthaa0831: im definately laughing outloud right now W V baBy Doll 3: lol W V baBy Doll 3: me too manthaa0831: yeaa she did manthaa0831: but if they all have little fish personalities... manthaa0831: then... W V baBy Doll 3: lol manthaa0831: they wouldnt get confused W V baBy Doll 3: true manthaa0831: and if one fish is mean and one is nice and i were a fish i would fall in love and mate with the nice fish manthaa0831: even though i dont know how to mate manthaa0831: lol manthaa0831: not yet anyway.. im gonna find out! W V baBy Doll 3: hahaha W V baBy Doll 3: oh wow W V baBy Doll 3: you are funny manthaa0831: my mom calls them the frisky fish W V baBy Doll 3: lol W V baBy Doll 3: oh W V baBy Doll 3: im gonna name mine kinky k manthaa0831: haha cause if they have babies every 20 days! W V baBy Doll 3: lol manthaa0831: thats a lot of babies!! W V baBy Doll 3: lol yeaa W V baBy Doll 3: ok manthaa0831: haha and i'll name mine slutty s manthaa0831: hahahaha W V baBy Doll 3: so does that mean they have sex once and have 20 babies manthaa0831: cause if they dont have mates they just go around sleeping with everyone! W V baBy Doll 3: or have sex multiple times and have 20 babies W V baBy Doll 3: lol W V baBy Doll 3: hahaha manthaa0831: haha that is a very good question manthaa0831: but i have no idea manthaa0831: lol manthaa0831: cause i mean.. here we are again! do they have sex? W V baBy Doll 3: oh right manthaa0831: cause ive never seen a fish hump another one W V baBy Doll 3: i dont know W V baBy Doll 3: neither have i manthaa0831: that would be really really funny W V baBy Doll 3: but then again i have never really watched fish before manthaa0831: haha W V baBy Doll 3: hahaha yes it would manthaa0831: im gonna watch fish like its my duty from now on W V baBy Doll 3: with their lil fins W V baBy Doll 3: lol manthaa0831: hahahahhahahahahaha W V baBy Doll 3: thats what we will do W V baBy Doll 3: at your house manthaa0831: ok! W V baBy Doll 3: thats our job W V baBy Doll 3: lol manthaa0831: haha manthaa0831: i wonder if i have a perv fish in my tank W V baBy Doll 3: lol manthaa0831: seriously! manthaa0831: i mean manthaa0831: what if one guy goes around and fathers all of the babies manthaa0831: are the other males gonna get mad? W V baBy Doll 3: hmm W V baBy Doll 3: i hope you dont have fish that fight!!! manthaa0831: im gonan have a soap opera in my fish tank W V baBy Doll 3: hahaha manthaa0831: haha i hope not either! W V baBy Doll 3: we will write the story\ W V baBy Doll 3: lol manthaa0831: they are all the same kind so they should like each other! manthaa0831: haha ok! manthaa0831: and then there is the frog manthaa0831: hes probably gonna be a lonely little frog manthaa0831: i wanna get him a friend! manthaa0831: maybe we can do that this weekend! W V baBy Doll 3: haha ok! W V baBy Doll 3: that sounds fun@ W V baBy Doll 3: lol manthaa0831: and i really wanna get some more fish too manthaa0831: lol manthaa0831: but my mom said that once these start having babies im gonna have too many fihs W V baBy Doll 3: lol W V baBy Doll 3: i wanna watch them grow up! manthaa0831: haha me too! manthaa0831: they'll be our little babies! manthaa0831: aww~ W V baBy Doll 3: yay! manthaa0831: haha i have a sucker fish in my tank too manthaa0831: acuse it keeps it clean manthaa0831: and i named it doug manthaa0831: cause doug is a SUCKER! manthaa0831: haha! manthaa0831: i thought it was clever W V baBy Doll 3: hahaha W V baBy Doll 3: im gonna go take a shower really quick W V baBy Doll 3: i will brb!@ manthaa0831: ok i think im gonna go to bed! manthaa0831: ttyl! <3 W V baBy Doll 3: lol ok W V baBy Doll 3: good night<3 manthaa0831: well go watch my fish! manthaa0831: then go to bed! manthaa0831: lol W V baBy Doll 3: hahah ok W V baBy Doll 3: byebye<3 Current Mood: giggly (Comment on this)